Nightmare

It's going to rain hard it seems. Thunders warn us to be careful. This time I'm alone. I could also be afraid. Nightfall, rain, thunders. I was many times in my life. Not only with rain. Today something is different. My hands do not shake anymore. But my left eye still blink without control when I observe something for more than a minute.

Ideas make me think. Thoughts make me remember. Memories make me forget. But I still don't forgive.

I can feel the rain, how despaired it falls. I can smell the dust when it loses dryness. It's going to rain hard it seems. Thunders scares us us no matter if you are careful. This time I feel alone. Who's there? I'm supposed to be alone forever. Are you afraid? Why? Come here? Together we could embrace each other. Nightfall, rain, thunders, dreams, nightmares. I was. Many times. I don't remember how many. I can't. Only the rain, only the night and the darkness with out light. Right now something is different. Medicine? My hands have started to shake again. I can't stop them. Please, be quiet. Don't make me drop things. I, I think in some ideas. I remember some thoughts. Memories, forget the memories, memories. I make the rain fall and the dust to get wet. I forgive you. I Forgive myself.